I’ve got less than a week and a half before I take on the biggest challenge I’ve yet to face physically, and I’ve never felt such a drive in my life as I do now. I’m going to be taking on a three mile run combined with military style obstacle courses… In the MUD! Can I do this? I certainly hope so. I’ve been running a lot this past month, although this past week I’ve been down with another flare up of tendinitis in my ankles. I’m not letting it stop me though. With an ankle brace, I’m planning on attacking this challenge with whatever energy I have. I’ve had too many times in the past year when things have kept me from running or achieving something as big as this in my life, and I’m not about to let anything else ground me now. The awesome thing is I’m not doing this alone. My “brother” and his son are joining me to tackle this feat as well.
As I think about this challenge, I began to think about this as a life lesson…
Paul wrote about our life being a race, and I wonder how many times you can say you’ve been in a muddy obstacle course? I have been through a real muddy obstacle course, and I can remember how much energy it takes to fight through all that muck. Sometimes life can be that way. Financial stress, parenthood challenges, family conflicts, and even marital conflicts are like muddy moments. They wear you out, don’t they? I’ve cried out to God at those times saying, “Oh God, I don’t think I can make it through this!”
The difference between the physical obstacle course and the spiritual one is the inner energy doesn’t come from us, but God.
” His strength is perfect when our strength is gone;
He’ll carry us when we can’t carry on.
Raised in His power, the weak become strong;
His strength is perfect, His strength is perfect.” -Steven Curtis Chapman ~ “His Strength is Perfect”
Instead of looking for inner strength to find the energy to push through the muddy obstacle course, as I will find myself most likely doing in two weekends from today, we have to turn to God to give us the energy to push through.
Do I do that? Not always.
I admit that there are times when I fight to be able to do it on my own like a stubborn child not wanting her parent to help her reach for that beloved toy on the shelf. I’d end up sitting on the floor pouting and crying because I can’t do it myself.
Can you relate? I know I do. I have that inner stubborn child still in me with the will to be independent from any kind of outside help. Being hard of hearing has had me learn to depend on other people to be my ears at times, and it’s not always easy for me to accept that I do need that extra help from someone else sometimes.
Maybe that’s what God is trying to tell me…. “Hannah, stop trying to do it on your own! Let me help!”
That seems to be the theme this season in my life… I’m learning to “let go and let God”.